>>13761116The good feels from saving the world most of the time only really come while you're doing it. The currency from that decays. Doesn't last long before you're back in debt. Demands need to be met but being bound to anything is against an ethos.
I'm ambivalent about the cost of covid. Feels like i'm getting the consolation prize. Recognition of unfairness that I belong on the right side of it. Fighting on the losing side always. What's under survives by it. None of the good fight and there's no good.
Maybe it's always simple to fix things and what's in the way in charge. Unbelievably stupid or overwhelmed and all you see is what's holding them from getting the right thing done.
I don't turn my back on reality and join in ruining it at the behest of psychology. I'm a realist. Reality is good. The more of it the better. You can build with it. Shrink's are their name, pulling stuff down, making things small. As long as you're not in that you're ok. Wrong then can be a tragedy instead of a relief, an excuse that you don't have to exist.
