I was a super wild youth, from 13 to my 18th I did everything anyone could ever want to do. Now in my early 20s I am a boring cynical asshole. I've been remeniscing about my crazy younger years. I'm a guy btw, Pic related is my at that time 15 year old millionaire Latin gf whom I shared 5 crazy years with.
What could this mean? Is this an early sign of suicidal ism? Is death creeping on me?