What does /bant/ think of chaos magic? I thought it was a pretty silly idea at first, but I really did start to make it work for me, then I probably screwed myself over. So in addition to having a general advice/story/discussion thread here's my cock up cascade:

>Be me
>Heard of chaos magic from hippy gf
>Depressed as fuck, angry at god
>Fuck it we'll try
>Read pic related
>Later, on vacation in AZ
>Touristy shop selling native looking art definitely made by white people and marked up 3000000%
>Table with cheap charms, just laying out, gf, gf's family and shopkeep are distracted
>Yoink a little horseshoe charm with "buena suerte" on it, nobody is the wiser
>Figured stealing it would channel some wild, roguish luck for me because I've always had incredibly extreme fortunes
>Intent for it was to help channel my good and bad luck in a way I can manipulate and to make sure life stays interesting, hoping to ride the wave of what was already there with my crazy luck swings
>Worked great until I started hearing a voice in my head to represent the charm and it seems to have a mind and will of its own
>Understand this is all make believe but still feel like a schizo for even letting the thought occur to me
>Sounds like a 40 year old fat guy from Brooklyn
>Begins to push my good luck by balancing it, when I focused on creating good luck for a specific outcome it would create shitloads of bad luck in order to generate enough to do what I wanted
>Shit goes bad quickly, the game of magical consequences never ends
>Then I lose the thing in a huge field at a concert to the securityfags checking bags, I handed it to someone to step through the metal detector and the motherfucker must've palmed it or something
>Cat dies
>Gf cheats on me
>Basically everything nice I own breaks at once and I move back in with my grandparents to focus on college
>Charm still taunts me and acts according to its own will now

Question, how do I unbind this from myself? Any help would be great thanks