>>13971198aryan chad here, gotta pitch my two cents. The body is a separate thing from the mind and soul but in order to live best you have to accept that you're a man and an animal, and that the body and mind have a symbiotic relationship, so fleeing the sexual part of human nature is unwise. I was this way long ago, jacking off then loathing myself, hating sex. A shitload of 4chan users I have encountered offsite are stuck that way, screws with them bad. If your body tells you to screw Satori that's that, it's just your male nature pursuing something that you see as good, and Satori would enjoy it as well I think.
I only learned to stop caring about lust (neither hating nor enjoying, indifferent) after I ceased fapping for 2yrs then started again. So, maybe it's not something words can help you learn.
So to conclude: you are running in circles if you hate your own body and nature, so you should dismiss it. You probably like satori more than you consciously accept.
