>>14115495Once you realize this it's incredibly hard to accept, because it implies that you have voluntarily made yourself suffer.
Of course, why wouldn't you when you are full of self hate, guilt and fear. It makes perfect sense.
But what this also means is that you have been in control all along.
You are not a victim but you CHOSE this.
This is tragic but also incredibly powerful since it means since you are the one who put yourself in this situation, you can also drag yourself out of this.
