>>14269239>i would love not to fell that way, but i just do when i look at myself and the world i live in.Jack, we all make choices...but, sometimes those choices are only the stuff of feelings, perceptions.
While my life is not quite the way I might hope it to be, I make the best of what I have and don't sweat the things I have no way of changing.
>You wonder how I can stay positive. It's just a frame of mind. There's real life, yet, there's also the life I envision in my mind. That perfect life where all the pieces fall into place. Is it just fantasy? Is it only the stuff of dreams?
Not really. It's more like I'm constantly writing the life I would have in a perfect world ... envisioning it, feeling it, enjoying it's special fun, laughter and comforts - almost as if it is real ...an actual a part of my reality.
I might not actually have any of it, yet...I do all the same...because I can See It.
And THAT alone is what gives me comfort.
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If TSHTF, well, I've already envisioned many, if not almost all, reeeally bad worst-case scenarios ...so part of me is already prepared in many a way.
That's actually a comfort as well.
That I've chosen to 'experience' many things in my mind, heart and soul makes them part of my being. Good and bad.
I think that's why I feel happy...because I know that all-tolled, it's the best I can do to wind up with as few awful surprises moving forward, while giving me the benefit of quasi-experiencing things I otherwise can't.
I worked emergency management for many years, so it's possible I simply have this knack for visualizing worst and best case scenarios. IDK.
To paraphrase Ronnie, "Life might blow a dead pig, but, only if you let it."
