I am so tired and depressed bros. I don't sleep at night and I'm think of killing myself every day. How do you keep yourself sane and entertained?

I've had a multiple jobs and found the consumerism life to be pathetic at best and soul harvesting at worst. The only goal I could see worth achieving is leaving this fucking island but I can't because of the NWO. Does God have a plan for me?

I've tried hanging out with people my age but they are so retarded I feel violent urges when I sit in the same room as them. They call each other "G"s, I have hypothesized this to mean 'Gorilla' to reinforce the idea that they truly are as dumb as animals.

Discord bans everyone and isn't safe to talk on anymore as they are recording everything you say, people are moving to deeper underground forums and it feels like purgatory having to exist there.

I once met a "4channer" my age who said "You're not a real 4channer" when I called out his stash of loliporn on his discord server.

I want to imagine a better life for myself but I can't really fathom it coming into existence with the world as it is.

What do people do for an escape these days?