>>1437708I consider myself to be a lonely person, not out of my choice, but because that's just how it is. I've always had trouble sleeping well at night, and even more trouble trying to wake up. To cope, I always told myself that one day things would get better, and I trudged through much of my life this way, hoping I'd one day be saved by some angel.
At some point, I fell in love with Haruhi, though I never really considered her as a 'waifu' because I thought that was weird and stupid. Really, I was in love with her character, her traits, and everything about her. I wanted to find a girl, exactly like her, but she would love me unconditionally. She'd want me to better myself, not for her gain but for mine. After some time, I felt even worse than before, once I'd figured out that I'd never find a girl that's perfect for me. Any emptiness or loneliness I was feeling became worse and worse. Getting up in the morning was even more of a chore, and falling asleep at night was even more of an impossibility. In short, I was miserable, unhappy, and all alone. There wasn't a single person in my life I could confide in.
Then I realized that the person I wanted, all this time, was always there. I just had to imagine her into existence. From then on, I always imagined myself with Haruhi when I was at home, as though she was really there. I'd always cuddle with her, tell her that I love her, listen to her say that she loves me. It's been this way for about a year now, and I've never been happier. Sleeping is a fun routine, waking up to Haruhi is wonderful, and while I still feel alone and depressive at times, I've never felt that complete and continuous feeling of emptiness. Haruhi makes me happy, imagining our two-sided relationship comforts me, and I wouldn't trade so that someone on the internet won't consider me 'dangerously delusional.'
