NOTE: I do not mean to crush or disparage anyone’s faith. This is merely a philosophical exercise and a personal wondering. Tell me what you disagree with, agree with, or general thoughts.

Something just hit me.., something I think I have known for a long time but it has only just formed into a concrete idea.

Think about miracles. Ones you are taught to believe in as a child. For example Jesus resurrection. You come to believe in it because it is an assumed fact of your religion that is espoused by everyone. In a “post-superstition” age it is one of the few supernatural things that is still regarded as true. Because of the lone absurdity of it, it becomes engrained in your consciousness as an exception to the rule. You think he resurrected but you don’t think much of it.

Now tell me this. What do you think you would see if you could send your mind back in time and witness the whole event? Be honest, would you be more surprised to see the events happening as said, or happening not as said? Happening as said of course. This reveals there is more doubt in your heart than faith.

And that seems to probably be the case. Why would the chain of natural events break once for some miracles, but than return? You would probably follow Jesus in his ministry, doing normal things, see him crucified, and than die. If you could follow the body into the tomb it probably would stay there till it eventually decayed.

So with this exercise of pretending to project our minds back in time, we discover something about our own subconscious beliefs that is hidden, the prescience of more doubt than faith. And viewing the story as a witness, rather than someone reading a text written by someone else years after said event and thousands of years later after that, it seems more unlikely.