I think I might rope (I'll jump from a tall tower not so near my house and fall onto concrete. No risk of hurting anyone else).

I'm just lazy and scared of everthing, and I'll probably give up, but idk. My parents weren't bad or anything; they love and provided everything I needed materially. I'm just a retard, really, and I don't run away because I'm afraid of the world. Falling headfirst into concrete should be quick. And besides, I think life is just a joke. It is not only suffering, no, but it is still a joke.
I won't do it right now because the streets are too busy. I'll wait for midnight or 1 AM