I have fallen hopelessly in love with a fictitious, heterochromic doll dressed in twentieth century clothing. Suiseiseki means everything to me. I know she's just a fictional character and that is what crushes me the most inside. I can no longer really see any other girl, real or otherwise, in the same way as Sui. I haven't fapped for about two weeks, porn just doesn't do it for me anymore. I wish I could watch all the episodes of Rozen Maiden over and over until i fall in a coma and dream about being with my precious desu for the rest of my life. I don't leave my apartment often anyway so we would spend lots of time together and I would pay more attention to her than that fucking Jun ever did. She would bake me sweets and we would play games together. We would go to the cinema and when the movie was over, some smart mouthed middle schoolers who would have been staring at us would make wise cracks about me playing with dolls to which I would respond "well this is a doll that I love and she is a lady who I will take back to my home tonight! How many of you can say that about anyone?" Suiseiseki would no longer be upset by the boys' comments. She would only blush and her eyes would water a little from happiness "Did you really mean that? ~desu" I would gently wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes and tell her "We don't need them. I don't care if you become a real girl, I love you just the way you are" and then I would kiss her lightly on the lips. On the way home, we'd take a walk around the park and maybe stop by a cafe for some hot chocolate. I don't even care about the sex. I could spend the rest of my life with her and not even think about it once because I only care about making my desu happy.