I know how you feel, OP. I'm 30, but I am already world-weary & just tired of life.
>Have diagnosed Autism
>Have been let go or barred from past seasonal jobs because I am too slow
>Where I wasn't fired, I was harassed by my co-workers (tried standing up for myself, reporting them, ignoring it, nothing worked).
>Either for my slowness, or for me taking my job & responsibilities seriously, which made other people think I'm a power tripper.
Got removed from site a year ago from a shitty workplace where I was a security guard for 5 years. I loved that job, just not the boomer Karens who threw tantrums because I told them not to be dumbasses. After reporting harassment incidents, I was removed from site, my company told me "sorry, they can do what they want, teehee!"
Didn't get another security gig with them, all the other sites were two hours away in expensive areas. So, I've spent the last year as a NEET, living as frugally as possible on my savings. Been one of the best years of my life, aside from my anger about being mistreated. Getting a full night's sleep & full meals every day & night.
Now, my retiree dad is nagging me about getting another job (I live with him, can't tell him to fuck off, much as I want to). I don't want another job where I will be penalized or bullied for being slow, nor do I want to be punished for taking my job seriously. And, honestly, I've still got a lot of my savings.
Maybe I should try disability, again. They rejected me a few years ago.
Wish I studied business or economics so I could have some at home, white collar, make-work job where I make a comfortable living doing extremely little work for some megacorporation that probably doesn't know I exist.
