>>14855062Because we are not men who can get dates. Even if a girl threw her self at me I would not know what to do. Even if she understood me and knew how to handle me, I would still have to bring her home to my abusive Mother dominated family. Even if this somehow worked out I still wouldn't be earning enough to support any children I produced with her or adopted. But far above all, it was my mother's constant and vicious critique of ever single mistake I ever made, no matter how small, that makes me dread going near a woman. The constant humiliation I was raised on by her spiteful feminist ways. Men are responsible for all evil in the world and women deserve every advantage but none of the blame for anything.
So I retreat into my artificial world and a snap viciously at anyone who get too close to me. I'm just like a beaten dog. I banter online, drink way too much (shit I'm out of alcohol, time for another trip to the store,) watch internet videos and play video games. I am a weak, pathetic soul with no hope and no future. Wasting away wondering how many more years I can keep this up before starving or drinking myself to death. A neighbor of mine, the mother of another family drank herself to death. I know how that happens. I see the parallels. I don't care. I have no society that even wants me and I would probably just become awful to whom ever took me in anyway. So I'm stuck waiting for a miracle I don't deserve and was unlikely to happen anyway. Quit while you still can, anons. If you can. (But the really hard part is I never had the courage to leave my abusive family. They make it so cheap to live I would have to go suffer in the cold somewhere to break out.)
