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venting here because i think im coming to realisation im an utter loser fuckup
>age 4, forced to do mouth stuff with some guy(possibly orally raped?) from this point in my life i cannot brush my teeth without gagging and i cannot eat in front of people(I miss every wedding including my fathers)
>age 6, old man invites me into his house under the promise I'll get some candy. He cups my crotch and leans over to the side of me and smiles while doing so. he tries to run me over a few days later for some reason
>Age 7, older female cousin who is around 12 at the time keeps pinning me in bed and takes our clothes off. I don't remember much aside from her being half naked on top of me and I have trouble breathing
>age 10, drug dealer step dad says he's going around to my father's house to beat him up while I have to watch. I say sure and plan to shoot my step dad with my fathers shotgun since I know where the locker key is as well as the shotgun shells location. He doesn't go through with it
>teenage years. constantly bullied in school and the gender dysphoria causes me to drop out, try college, fail at that and drop out of that too
>age 23. meetup with a Danish woman in her home country, have sex, hate it, she rapes me a couple of times with a dildo
>spend 10 years(age 17 to 27) playing WoW and dota 2 and getting pissed on cider every day in my room
>age 27. try to join the YPG in Syria. Got as far as meeting them at a safe house in Iraqi Kurdistan and getting past a few police checkpoints in the middle of the night. My group is arrested at one checkpoint and we are jailed for a week in some prison in a cell with about 70 guys. I headbutt a prisoner who tried to steal my pillow. Fly back home poor and under surveillance from the Bri'ish guvnament
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>age 4, forced to do mouth stuff with some guy(possibly orally raped?) from this point in my life i cannot brush my teeth without gagging and i cannot eat in front of people(I miss every wedding including my fathers)
>age 6, old man invites me into his house under the promise I'll get some candy. He cups my crotch and leans over to the side of me and smiles while doing so. he tries to run me over a few days later for some reason
>Age 7, older female cousin who is around 12 at the time keeps pinning me in bed and takes our clothes off. I don't remember much aside from her being half naked on top of me and I have trouble breathing
>age 10, drug dealer step dad says he's going around to my father's house to beat him up while I have to watch. I say sure and plan to shoot my step dad with my fathers shotgun since I know where the locker key is as well as the shotgun shells location. He doesn't go through with it
>teenage years. constantly bullied in school and the gender dysphoria causes me to drop out, try college, fail at that and drop out of that too
>age 23. meetup with a Danish woman in her home country, have sex, hate it, she rapes me a couple of times with a dildo
>spend 10 years(age 17 to 27) playing WoW and dota 2 and getting pissed on cider every day in my room
>age 27. try to join the YPG in Syria. Got as far as meeting them at a safe house in Iraqi Kurdistan and getting past a few police checkpoints in the middle of the night. My group is arrested at one checkpoint and we are jailed for a week in some prison in a cell with about 70 guys. I headbutt a prisoner who tried to steal my pillow. Fly back home poor and under surveillance from the Bri'ish guvnament
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