>>14925242>Trust me when I say life is much more manageable without that poison in your life.i found life difficult even before i started drinking; i have been cursed with an impenetrable anhedonia since before my teenage years which has destroyed my motivation to do basically anything. ive been binge drinking since age 14, regularly at 15 and alcoholism began at 16. i dont know if the damage ive done to myself during such a biologically significant time in my life is reversible and ive probably cut about 20 years off of my lifespan, but i needed it just so i could enjoy things. whenever i have been asked about good times i have had, my responses always started with "well one night i was drinking" or something similar to that.
>You won’t know until you take a prolonged break from drinkingthe last time i stopped drinking for a while i lost my job due to behavioral issues. i cant risk that again, especially not in the current economy. everybody has their dark times, maybe one day all of that will change. it's mighty late and i have work in a few hours, it was good speaking, goodnight all
