>>14990443you know how there's that psychological theory about how cucks are afraid of being cucked by their woman so they purposely set themselves up to be cucked? the theory is that by doing it this way, they remove the fear of uncertainty and the threat of betrayal by creating the betrayal themselves, taking away the pain of their significant other betraying them because instead it was set up by them, not her. they also take away the anxiety of uncertainty by having control over when it happens.
i'm kinda like that. if someone were to love me, i want them to gently cut me with a knife every now and then. make a nice, thin cut behind my neck when i'm not looking with a disinfected knife. occasionally just randomly jab a syringe in me and take some blood out. maybe i'll go to bed and wake up on an operating table with my stomach opened. only to be put back to sleep to find the cut made sewed nice and shut. the only way i could ever trust someone with my life is, ironically, if they were to constantly threaten it. i can only bond with them if they always harm me physically but never cause any fatal injuries.
if your love cant do that, then it's as good as nothing to me.
