here in this specific reality?
what am i to begin with?
am i this waking creature striving for the happy life while conscious?
what about when my conscious state is altered- whether through substances or dreams or emotions?
when i witness myself through those lenses, i become infinite, able to experience all, yet i still can not define myself.
am i all of that i witness?
then what happens when that conscious experience terminates?
how would i have the ability to have witnessed anything at all if that experience terminates?
when people talk about the good life, what does that mean in terms of what's inside?
i know it's not consciously important to our survival, but what does life mean otherwise- everything not immediately accessible in waking, conscious, unaltered states?
