why am i so ignored? everywhere ive gone all my life ive been unable to catch peoples attention, irl and online, everyone talks over me, acts like im not there, glosses over the things i say, communities looking for friends dont consider me even before ive introduced myself.
the worst part is, if i want to open my mouth about this, theres nothing i can say without sounding like im whining and embarrassing myself like a manchild. its a double edged sword theres nothing i can do. it must be my personality because i cant think of why else this would happen to me no matter where i go. it has to be my fault but i cannot figure how to address it no matter what i do. im lonely and i have nearly never in my life had a close friend i could talk to. im so sick and tired of this.
does anyone else relate or do i just look like a huge fag? what tf do i do? this plagues my life