I doubt they'd also want to endure the change I want to see. Guess i'll just keep on suffering. Maybe I can adopt the Nietzschean delusion and cope by deluding myself into actually enjoying my suffering like a retarded masochist. Even now I still refuse to even think to myself that I hate my life(barring this exception) even though I really do. I'm little more than a walking hovel hardly fit to house a human spirit at all.
