long post coming
>>15274495i am a fat ass but that's the only thing i can think of that's my fault, i've been extremely unlucky in life anon, i've ran into a lot of assholes in my life and have been put down so many times as a child, even by my own family, adults, and teachers, and yes other kids too. i'm not gonna blame society or hate everyone for it and i don't hold a grudge or hate anyone, except my coaches and teachers, they were grown adults and shouldn't have talked to me like that, but as far as family and kids who insulted me i can let it go but i'm never gonna forgive them for the pain they caused me and the trust has been broken with my family. also my mom and dad weren't really in my life like they were supposed to be, never cared about my grades or helped me out with to much in life. i'm extremely insecure and sensitive, i can't laugh at any insult and idk if i could ever joke around with someone i don't know or even if i did know them well.
>>15274659i'm guessing you ran into an anti social person who was an asshole? i've lost most of my social skills, like i forget to ask someone what they like or how keep a conversation going, and when someone makes a joke i can't laugh at it, if i were to force myself it would be too cringe. also i would consider myself one of the most humble and empathetic people out there, or i'm not trying to come off as a great guy but i've actually had people use me for pencils and answers back in high school just so i had someone to talk with, and my ego is basically non existent, i think the only thing that could break my ego is if were to get beaten up in front of my gf if i ever managed to get one in life, but i've lost in competitions many times
