>>15276475well, the antipsychotics i was given as a child fucked up my brain, so i decided to not take them
ive gone through every philosophy, mindset, ideology, workout routine, done every drug, went to your therapies and psychologists who ended up just wanting to sell me snake oil, and yet nothing works
i always tell myself that i will escape this seemingly endless asshole, i dont just want to blacken, i am always looking for the good, but right now and here i am in hell and i am being killed quietly.
there is no longer a drop of desire, i will just drink myself to death, and hopefully when i die i will be relieved of my duty in the land of eternal bliss