I’m realizing that I’m depressed. My brother is crippled and is in constant pain, heavily medicated, addicted to his medication and is suicidal. My family hates my parents so they don’t talk to us anymore. My best friends are in a different state so I can’t see them in person. The girl of my dreams doesn’t reciprocate and I know I should just move on but she’s the only person I know in my state and is the first girl to truly understand me. I’m tired but can’t sleep, I want to run but don’t have the drive to stand up. I want to tell my family but with all the bs we’ve been going through with my brother’s condition, I’m afraid to say something. My best friends are not answering my calls and everyone in my house is asleep, so please say something, anything is fine desu.