>>15284838no, but i kinda read a few pages of the book before i set out last time. i guess i live with a cain, and it's as though she rejects love and kindness. maybe because she's scared inside to accept it into her life. regardless, i need to go, she's taken too much out of me that i can never get back. i want to start living for me. i keep talking to strangers with a mask, as though i am afraid of both them and myself discovering who i am inside. it causes me to look down on others, rather than view them as my equal, and i realize this isn't right either. i used to be different, but i lost that part of myself. i need to reconnect with him.
i do recognize that we do live in a really challenging time, but i wish we'd come together as humans and help eachother, rather than step on eachother to climb higher. i know reality does not care for my wishes though, and i can't force people to care. i just have to move on.
thanks for your time, bro
