I realised that my thoughts here are a bit if a rant so bear with me and ask specific questions from me or for clarification if needed.
Here we go:

Prologue/main point:
I don't value being social, talking in general and expressing feelings.
I value putting in love (energy), "just being there" and physical touch with someone who VALUES ME for doing so.

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I never met alot of people because I never thought that was something others did and had no natural inclination to do it myself.
Being with the boys as a kid and playing games and then slowly drifting off into your own early adulthood by either dropping out, going to another school than everyone else or starting to work. That is how me and all my friends started to drift apart from each other.
All that was left was to play online games with myself and watch YouTube for company. This was just the beginning of it all around age 20 or 21. That is how my life was then and not much has changed since then because you either have parents who support your NEETING, you do some community college or work alittle to get them off your back and you keep doing whatever hobbies and routines you've had as an early 20 something continued up to today.
Im a 31 kissless virgin as of today.

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