>>15493521Anytime, I just want things to ease up on you, I hope it helps a bit. And yeah, I'm not implying that your mom is necessarily bad, she probably does have genuine care for you as her child, she's human too, I mean, the appointments that she perfectly planned out for you must've been out of good intention, even if it's not actually what's best for you and what you need, that's where she's in the wrong. But, it doesn't seem like she sees you as an actual person, with your own problems that needed to be shown support towards and whatnot, or what you want. More like an object, that's there, just her son. Send him over to a doctor and hope things fix themselves. If it's been so long and she still isn't interested in being more considerate with you and what you feel, then, there's just no excusing it at that point. It's really nice of you that you've helped her out in times of need, not saying you shouldn't have done that, don't think it was a waste. But now is the time when you need to look after yourself more than anybody else, just say no to stupid stuff that you don't need to be doing, you have actual stuff to deal with.
>It won't be bad if she loses meDon't think that. It would be, she does have care for you, it's just that she doesn't know how to handle this and what you're going through. Maybe she just wanted you to eat with her not because of some ulterior controlling scheme, she just wanted to have a sit-down together with you and have some time. Not something she should get pissed over you refusing, though, that's still a fault.
>I'm gonna be more independent and focus more on myselfYeah, that's what you need to do anyhow, shouldn't even be thinking about family matters right now, just focus on your future and studies. So, yeah, say no to things, you're not obliged to do them, you've already done good things for your mom and don't owe her anything, or to anyone, take control of your life. I really hope you can get it done, so, good luck.
