are you able to fully develope an image in your mind anon?
close your eyes and make a fully black canvas.
manifest in your mind, look at it from every angle.
not take a bit out of it and see the removed flesh.
now with your will make it an orange with the same bite removed.
now put the bitten material back.
now make it a red balloon,
make the red balloon pop.
try this excersise of the mind for yourself, it pays dividends.
hopefully you're capable of it, goodningt.