>>15614674I was raised Christian too, but I don't really follow it. I think there was probably someone called Jesus who saw the state of the world around him and tried to change it by doing good, I try to follow his example. My relationship with God is a personal one, I see no need to go to a church.
Have you tried meditation since returning from Nepal? You can't forget your past, and you can't change it, but perhaps it would help you come to terms with it. An important thing for me is forgiveness, both for others and for yourself.