>>15655872I've had several relationships and a few FWB contacts but everything is blurry. Vanilla sex feels like a chore and I don't actually feel the surge of dopamine and adrenaline in it
>>15655886very fair point you mentioned poland-kun. I know it's best if I can just live a proper life and find a proper partner who will share joy and hardship with me but the worst part of me is halting my goodness.
maybe it will be a battle to see which part of me prevails and what path of hell will I walk...
>>15655896thank you for your kind words americanon. I just enrolled in night courses and bought weight + yoga mat. I feel down but will still make attempts to make life better.
May you stay strong and find luck in life