>>15696248The "funny" thing is that another's misery never genuinely brings you joy. You're a miserable person.
I say this as a matter of fact: I was a person who hated others more than you likely do. I used to say, "If you could bottle up all of the hate I feel into a bottle and take a sip, you'd die." I hated seeing people smile, or hearing them laugh in company. I thought of everyone as a retard and a useless sack of garbage. I thought "They're retarded. They love shit movies, stupid music, and they delight in degenerate and pathetic interests. They're useless. So whatever they have to grin or cheer about is equally as worthless." The thought of it made me almost physically ill. It turned my stomach to see anyone happy. I don't say any of this to be "edgy" or "cool" or "dark". This is how I truly felt. I took "nihilist" to the extreme. I didn't just dislike everyone, I hated them.
"Hate is a strong word", and I used it deliberately. I knew what I was saying, and I meant it. You and your friends are all retards. Whether conservative or liberal, you're all a waste. That's what I felt. I wouldn't have sided with any of you. If you breathed air, you needed to die. It never made me "feel better" to see you suffer and die; I just wanted it because "fuck you". There are many things that brought me to that point. There were many factors in making me that person. But I became a Christian, and have since changed. Yes, I still struggle with anger and resentment, but I have changed in ways I would have previously never thought possible. I have said that "I have never felt so much compassion for my fellow man in my life", and that is a statement of fact.
Don't tell me God can't change a Man. I'm living proof. And I've not even scratched the surface of the hateful piece of crap I was. You've no idea the depth of it all. I know it doesn't make you happy. Nothing does.
