I just need to get this off my chest. I make a post like this every few months and it really helps. So im going to sperg now. I’m not religious, was not raised religious either, but I do believe in a spiritual plane. I think I got hooked by some black magic, some negative sexual energy.

Look at that pic, look how androgynous he is, and that nigga is 30 fuckin years old. Well, I am as androgynous if not more, tho I’m only 28. It’s completely weird how pretty I am. This is relevant, and you can believe it, or not

I used to fuck myself to degenerate porn while high on meth, for DAYS AT A TIME. I mean like 72 hours in one sitting. Around the two day mark I would start to get videos recommended to me that would flash satanic sigils in the background, I never searched for these but they found me multiple times.

Here’s why I’m hooked. I have a really cute, kind of button nose. After these meth masturbation marathons, I developed a new habit of pressing upward on my nose with my finger. So like, finger against lips, last joint bent back, pressing nose up like a pig

It turns me on to no end, and I can’t stop because my hand, and my nose, are always right there. I do this for like 4 hours a day, at least, and the whole time I’m imagining the most depraved things. It smells like skin, which turns me on ( if it doesn’t smell like skin it doesn’t ), it emphasizes my nose, and it just feels degrading. Basically my mind is truly fucked and sexualized. It’s like half the day, every day, I’m just imagining giving in