Maybe not so much now that he's gone full blown tranny, but back in the day I always had a weird underlying desire to BE Chris Chan. I never could explain it well, but it always felt like he was living a life that I lost long ago. Trolls aside, the guy lived (still lives) like a child, pampered by his family and society. He created his own dream world which he fully immersed himself into. I guess in essence, he had never lost his imagination. Don't get me wrong, I loved laughing at him, watching him drink his own semen, scream JULAAAAAAAY while fucking a sex doll, telling the world about his DIRTY CRAPPED BRIEFS and also shoving his Crayola model magic medallion up his ass. At the same time though, I'd be drowning myself in a bottle of rum thinking that I was somehow superior. For me, the magic had been lost long ago when I grew up and in some way I think I envied that he was still able to live a life of fantasy despite being 2 years older than me.