MY MOM IS MANIPULATING AND CONTROLING ME

> be me
> 18, virgin
> got mental breakdown cuz I have no friends
> my moms reaction was: “wtf anon you dont need friends you have family”
> I remember that she already told this to me when I was 15 yo
> “They all have GFs just to look manly anon”

I wasnt allowed going out until I was 18 no joke guys.

> Now i put these things together
> my mom doesnt love me she just want to control me cuz she literally can see every flaw in me
> she knows about my depression, anxiety and she doesnt care
> she just care only about that I dont drink and I am just studying

> She literally made up my social awkwardness (I was really extroverted in my youth) just to control me. She didnt allow me to socialize.

What to do?
I cant move out yet cuz I have no money what would you do on my place? Now I am working on getting some friends