>>1598636I just started to become anxious and depressed at 20 years of age but my friend noticed it when I was 18-19 in my final year of highschool. I think I have repressed memories of things happening like my dad beating me up or yelling at me or my mom getting batshit crazy, or my siblings yelling at me, or another sibling throwing a rock at my head, or some guy in school named Adam bullying me often, or people in general being assholes to me. It just built up into this repressed section of my brain, until one day after my dad yelled at me, I went to sleep and developed this born anxiety from all the repression just leaking out. Afterwards I started to become extremely depressed, even more than normal. My dreams became, in essence, dark and gloomy-- I even heard a growling sound in my dreams and woke up with a severe headache. I think my psyche was tormented enough for it to turn corrupt or in other words, broken. I wanted to correct without using antidepressants so I took LSD, but it only made it worse, as when I was on it, I dreamt of black fortresses in my sleep.. Or black structures. I didn't know what it meant but I looked into the mirror and saw nothing but blackness.. In conclusion I think there is something incredibly wrong with me. After the LSD, I also notice I contradict myself with decisions more often too.
