>>16058108No
I liked it when my purpose in life was having no purpose in life (isolating in my apartment destroying walls anime girl body dysmorphia setting my arm on fire hoarding piss bottles living in garbage) now the having no purpose in life is the bad kind. Since I can't do those harmful things anymore I have to try to be successful and normal but I'll never be completely functionable so I'm just a failed normie. I used to be a high negative number, but instead of changing to a high positive number, I'm just zero now
>>16058135It wasn't better and I'm not disgusted and horrified and tormented anymore but it's just that because I spent so long waiting for nothing other than getting out, and now I'm out, I don't know what I'm waiting for
