my stress levels from having to travel and navigate a foreign country with a mom who's basic brain function barely reaches that of an elementary school graduate, outside of when she's not being an actual caring mom, was enough to give me a paralyzing panic attack, and the tripbin general likely weakened my immune system to the point where i now how to deal with a scary mystery fever that's been slowly killing me the past three days. the pain is paralyzing, and all encompassing, but i am told that i must be grateful for this "unique experience". god save me, god save me, god save me.
