I know I am inebriated...but do you think I wanted this reality!!!!! My people...my culture...all FUCKING KILLED!!!! I DID NOT THINK I WOULD HAVE ANOTHER IDENTITY CRISIS. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT DID MY ANCESTORS DO TO PLAGUE ME WITH SUCH HATRED!!!!!!!!!!????????????? I don't know anymore......do full of hatred.....this reality...it kills me...why must I think and fucking think.....why do I have the blood of a filthy Injun....a disgusting putrid halfbreed. I hope my ancestors killed plenty...