met girl on dating site, she was very active in our conversation, we have met at night drank some cider, i walked her to her home, she hughed me very hard, we continued to communicate throughout the week, then i invited her to my home to watch anime, we watched cyberpunk, after watching she started hug me, after five minutes i initiated kiss her, we did it for around 2 minutes, she was very good in this

after this i offered to have sex

she said no and became sad, she started just sit and didn't look at me, but she offered me snus I agreed, then after 10-15 minutes she left me.

she just walked out the door without hugging me, but then she looked at me and decided to give me a little hug. after this night she didn't write me anymore

i feel myself so fucking retarded