>>16266773I don't know either dude, but I hope it helps to know that you aren't alone. It helps to make irl friends. Most of my friends started as internet friends that went to my high school on facebook but we bonded over memes and started hanging out irl.
When I am around good friends, I feel more like a real person. Also you could get into tabletop games and trading card games, that can be a good way to make friends. I will pray for you.