I'm really fucking irritated. I've been going to bars and clubs since August or something, and also a few times in April. Maybe 20-30 times in total, not sure because I didn't keep a diary. Never did I get any memory gaps. But this Saturday I feel like I have a very weak memory of one conversation and also one other event. I didn't drink more than normally. I wasn't very drunk. I had somewhere around 5 drinks. I say around because one beer I just had a few sips of, then I had a few sips of the beer of one of the guys I was hanging out with, then they drank from my drink when I was in the bathroom. And one shot that one of the guys gave me I don't remember if it was full or not, or even if I drank it at all, that's the second event I mentioned. But roughly 5 drinks. I've had more drinks some other nights I'm pretty sure. The only thing that was different this time was that I smoked. I wasn't a smoker but I kind of started smoking just so I could hang out in the smoking section, and that's what I did this Saturday. I remember all other interactions and events from that night clearly, just these two events are blurry. It's fucking annoying because the conversation I think was with a girl and that would be the most interesting thing to remember from the whole night because that's important for analyzing my game. I don't even remember clearly who it was, who started talking, where exactly we were, and all the words. I want to remember this so I can analyze and know if it was a girl and if she liked me etc. I just have a very weak memory of some words I think we said, and as I said that I think it was a girl. It's fucking useless to go out to talk to girls if you can't even remember afterwards the interactions and conversations, you can't analyze what was right and wrong etc, and it's just shit in every way. Why the fuck did this happen? Is it because I smoked?