whenever i post here, i can't help but be rude to anybody and everybody i think that deserves it, and not everyone does. but what i don't understand about myself is why i am so inclined to choose negativity over positivity. it feels like my brain is optimized for saying something that'd make another human being feel awful, and even when i do try to make a conscious effort and be nice, it still come out sounding rude. what happened to me?