Hey guys. Amerifag here. Autistic, ADHD, and Bipolar. I'm here to vent and I don't fucking care anymore. The only tether to life I still have is my dog. I've lost the love of my life. I've loved her for years and watched her be with someone very close to me for 6 years. I finally got to be with her only to lose her after 9 months. We're still friends, but it's not the same. I got a taste and it was everything I ever wanted, but I fucked it up and she had to leave. I've decided to get sober so I don't even have drugs to numb my pain. Had to move back into my mother's house, bc nowhere else to go atm. I intensively exercise everyday and take care of my body, but what the fuck is the point anymore. My mind is destroyed and now I can hardly cope with the shit my defective brain already struggles to deal with on a daily basis. I've bottomed out and wish I could die. I just can't leave my sweet baby girl alone even tho my love would take care of her in my absence. So what's up with yall?

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