>>16514495>>16516079Because I was a virgin and I never had a relationship. I usually don't care about my loneliness, but it was that night that the realization came down to me, crushing me like a ton of bricks: that in my entire life, a quarter of a century, no single woman out of the hundreds of thousands or millions available ever loved me. The fact that while everyone else was having relationships, and it's a commonplace thing for them, and being generally accepted in society, in contrast to the absolute rejection I received and the fact that I can't even comprehend what relationships even are, let alone imagine myself in one. I cried because of the realization of how big the chasm between normal people and me is, and I couldn't delude myself anymore that I was normal or that my life was salvageable.
No longer a virgin, but still no relationships ever. I'm afraid to get to 30 like this.
I understand why some might think it's funny.
