I just wish I were born a woman.
I wish I had a loving boyfriend who would hold me in his arms.
I wish I were small, and not so tall.
I wish I didn't have large man hands, and a large man jaw, and a manly face.
I wish I didn't have such a mean, masculine personality, from all the years of self hatred
I wish I didn't alienate everyone because I'm autistic
I wish I had a useful skill outside of being exceptionally good with computers, servers, and software. It's ironic that my only real skill is the very thing that took the best years of my life away from me.
I wish I had friends. I wish I had a hobby that wasn't so isolating as technology.

I've been doing really good coping in spite of all of this though, my life has been getting better with every month, I'm still wageslaving and slowly stacking cash, but my life is literally work and home and nothing else.

What should I do to make myself happier?