>>16617749>I more than doubt finding your "second half", a girl , will mend the wounds.i get that. you're spot on. do not worry, i'm trying to get help, as difficult as it is in this country. i'm currently seeing a counsellor
she reached out to me first, and it a great motivator for me to get my shit together so that i can be with her and be the best possible partner
>is to understand the catalyst for these intrusive thoughts of pegging or cross-dressing. i have thought about this before, i think that these thoughts get worse when i'm having a really bad day, and i find comfort in these thoughts (so they're not quite intrusive per se, i enjoy them). i'm fairly sure i developed bpd as a result of my upbringing and i have really bad mood swings (self harm, dissociation, paranoia, hallucinations) which are caused by the smallest things.
