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Let me not overthink the significance of me injuring my right hand just now
The end of my old life was long overdue, but corona got in the way. I should not be already almost 23 for it to end.
This lifestyle I should not have lived was extended by double by it.
After all of this, I will never be able to go back to live as I lived
The way things occurred were the best for it to already be put to an end. Only through complete shameless humiliation and my complete reduction could it have been put an end to.
I asked the one above for so long to end it already. To give me my life back. And I believe he did it in the way he would.
At the end of it I could not even convince one person to better their ways.
Now I just wonder about one thing: How long will it be, and how much will I have to do to attain what in my whole life I was denied?
What I had been unable to do 4 years ago is just falling in place by itself. It would have been better if it happened sooner.
I have talked to the ones that left before me, there are so many of them, I never believed I would ever become one of them, I always thought that I would stick to my ways to the bitter end.
This is the bitter deserved end.
I must kill the child.
The dreams are still half a life away... To marry, to be productive, to live in piety...
Yes, yes, I know, I talk so much and say so little. You still owe me an apology.
As if the one I am addressing with most of this is even reading this.
Nichts soll uns scheiden von der Liebe Gottes
