> be me
> kissless virgin
> fat fuck
> wasted most of my life in my room playing videogames with my friends
> jack off everyday since im 12
> never had a gf before
> always tried but failed
> even lose some good friends through it
> 4 month ago
> can't play a game longer then few minutes without closing them again
> realize that i'm wasting my time with the same shit over and over
> decide to change my life
> decide to join a social club
> start having fun again
> meet new people
> meet also a nice girl
> learn more about her, her hobbys, etc.
> getting really interested in her
> start to feel weird
> stomach starts turning
> mind starts racing
> don't even feel the urge to masturbate again
> never felt something like this before, when talking to a girl
> talk to her more outside of the SC
> can't stop smiling when i'm near her
> realise who i am
> get depressed again


Is this fucking love? Fuck these "butterflys in my stomach" bs. Im scared to fuck this up or say something wrong. I never had luck with girls before
and i cant stop thinking about her smile. Everything at her is perfect. She is cute, smart, she makes me happy and i dont know how to handle this situation.
I dont want to go full retard and lose her.
It's the first i feel something like this and it hurts more, since i know i can't do shit.