>>16786652 I think Christianity is a really beautiful religion but I can't bring myself to align with it's modern incarnation. That might change as I get older and understand it better, I don't know.
I can't accept that Christianity is the be all and end all regarding the mystery of the world. I think it's at best one expression of a divine truth.
I also think if God is real, skeptics would have a valuable place in his order. If he is real, how could my urge to seek truth outside the confines of organised religion originate outside of or conflict with his designs? If he is real, any journey undertaken in good faith with the aim of knowing and appreciating the world better must eventually lead to a better understanding of God, right?
It's hard for me to see how a generous god, whose designs and understandings encompass the whole world, would be mad over the exact formulation of his being in human understanding. If I don't worship him the right way, if I don't call him the right term - why would he be concerned with being gratified that way a human would?
As far as I'm concerned worship of the world, of God's design, is near identical with worship of the hypothetical essential spirit that created it - God. Of course in that case it's still possible to get the wrong *idea* about the world, in minute ways or sweeping fundamental ways. So then I guess what separates from a Christian is faith? I love the world but I don't know God. If he were real I would want to know him better, for now I'm content with trying to know the world.
Of course, I understand in many interpretations of Christianity God *is* jealous, petty and demanding. In many he is not the total of the world's will, and more than - he is lord over things called 'good' while either an adversary or human failure encompass evil.
I find most of those forms hard to understand even on a basic level. Why would God's will decree such arbitrary things?
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been reading to read more Simone Weil, any fans?