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Isnt it crazy that all I needed to do to see a vagina, be in a relationship, have sex and even have kids by now was to just be alittle bit more socially aware at those younger years in middleschool, highschool and community college?
If I just didnt ignore, one word responded, ghosted and even just stared at girls talking to me until they left, it all would have been fine.
By an interval of like 4 years, every 4 years, i learned enough social skills to have been able to succeed with the women from those 4 years ago. Even though my social skills were always far below my peers at any given moment, to have caught up with this interval would be all I would have needed to do.
At 17 I knew what I should have said, done and how I should have acted at 13. At 21 I knew about all the chances I missed at 17, at 25 I learned about the chances at 21, and so on.
At the age of 25 I had basically "turned down" 10 advances by women from ages 13 to 25 that would have lead to some kind of relationship if pursued correctly.
Like I said, I wouldnt have to be good at any of the social games that most people find natural, I just needed to catch up with the interval and it would have been fine, I never did.
The scary thing now at 31, almost 32, is I havent had any of these revelations since age 25 or so.
I have to guess its because I interact with women so sparingly now days that I just havent got enough experience to unconsciously reflect on to have any revelations any more.
Or the interval have increased and im in for a big suprise in a few years of even more missed opportunities.
It just doesnt feel like before though since the only women I interact with are from work and since I work in service (massage therapy) with no co-workers then it becomes almost impossible to decipher any clients, in case they have double meaning, body language or any wording to mean anything outside of the context of my work. I cant take it personally or I would just be a douchbag and a creep.
If I just didnt ignore, one word responded, ghosted and even just stared at girls talking to me until they left, it all would have been fine.
By an interval of like 4 years, every 4 years, i learned enough social skills to have been able to succeed with the women from those 4 years ago. Even though my social skills were always far below my peers at any given moment, to have caught up with this interval would be all I would have needed to do.
At 17 I knew what I should have said, done and how I should have acted at 13. At 21 I knew about all the chances I missed at 17, at 25 I learned about the chances at 21, and so on.
At the age of 25 I had basically "turned down" 10 advances by women from ages 13 to 25 that would have lead to some kind of relationship if pursued correctly.
Like I said, I wouldnt have to be good at any of the social games that most people find natural, I just needed to catch up with the interval and it would have been fine, I never did.
The scary thing now at 31, almost 32, is I havent had any of these revelations since age 25 or so.
I have to guess its because I interact with women so sparingly now days that I just havent got enough experience to unconsciously reflect on to have any revelations any more.
Or the interval have increased and im in for a big suprise in a few years of even more missed opportunities.
It just doesnt feel like before though since the only women I interact with are from work and since I work in service (massage therapy) with no co-workers then it becomes almost impossible to decipher any clients, in case they have double meaning, body language or any wording to mean anything outside of the context of my work. I cant take it personally or I would just be a douchbag and a creep.
