back to sleeping in class
basically its pretty nice its the closest youre gonna get to drugs probably not that i would know how drugs are like
not all green though it was just hellish when youre not allowed to doze off cause the teacher is a faggot and your head keeps dropping down and back up
though at the time the feeling sucked now when i think about it, i kind of look back on it fondly like id like to have it happen again or something
maybe because of that trippy feeling i dont know
and also because when you do finally get free and are allowed to sleep it feels otherworldly nice
but eh have to be careful what you wish for, easy to look back on bad things in a good way, they end up being even worse if they happen again
i wonder if thinking about bed while trying to sleep in class is a bad or good thing
like its a double-edged word imo
because you think about how good its going to be once you finally get in bed and snuggle up in the covers and hug your pillow a bit and its just going to be really nice and ur going to nap too and its just going to be the best thing ever
i remember coming home to bed and just constantly changing position while hugging stuff and whatever cause it just felt so nice to be there and i was genuinely happy to just be in the bed and the only thing going on in my mind was "its really nice to be in the bed"
and that went on for an hour
im not giving it any exaggeration i was genuinely in a state of euphoria cause i was so happy to be in bed
you ever just fall down in the bed when really tired or something and it feels amazing cause you kind of sink in or the bed is sucking you in a little bit
what sucks is that it tends to not last for that long cause u go to sleep shortly after, but here i was having that feeling for that entire hour and god i really really wish it happened again i need somebody to sleep torture me just keep me awake for 3 days straight and then throw me to my bed
youtube.com/watch?v=1M_k7b1cAxM 
