I have spent the last three years of my life since high school effectively doing nothing. I am enlisting in the military at the moment and I'll be going to basic in February, but I still feel like I've ruined my life by wasting these three years and in fact it feels like my life has essentially nowhere to go at this point. What is the point of going on when so few will ever get what they want? Love, success, whatever - it's all so unobtainable and it seems like no matter what you do, you're going to end up unhappy and alone. My twenties are supposed to be the best years of my life but yet I have wasted them even though I have only just started them. I constantly think about killing myself because I know I'll never be happy, and yet I don't want to die. I want to live and I do want to be happy. I just know I won't ever be, because who is? Nobody is happy. This isn't fair. Don't you agree?